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There are so many people out there who will tell you that you can't. What you've got to do is turn around and say, "Watch me."

- unknown

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2011-11-17T09:45:00.001-08:00

People say, ‘I’m going to sleep now,’ as if it were nothing. But it’s really a bizarre activity. ‘For the next several hours, while the sun is gone, I’m going to become unconscious, temporarily losing command over everything I know and understand. When the sun returns, I will resume my life. If you didn’t know what sleep was, and you had only seen it in a science fiction movie, you would think it was weird and tell all your friends about the movie you’d seen. They had these people, you know? And they would walk around all day and be OK? And then, once a day, usually after dark, they would lie down on these special platforms and become unconscious. They would stop functioning almost completely, except deep in their minds they would have adventures and experiences that were completely impossible in real life. As they lay there, completely vulnerable to their enemies, their only movements were to occasionally shift from one position to another; or, if one of the ‘mind adventures’ got too real, they would sit up and scream and be glad they weren’t unconscious anymore. Then they would drink a lot of coffee. So, next time you see someone sleeping, make believe you’re in a science fiction movie. And whisper, ‘The creature is regenerating itself.

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Spooky Scary

2009-09-08T01:17:00.000-07:00

"What they call love is a risk, cause you will always get hit out of nowhere by some wave and end up on your own."

If there is a will, there is a way.

2009-08-29T14:37:00.000-07:00

Each of us are capable of going anywhere or getting anything done. A lot of the time, it's just a matter of someone showing us the way. But we all don't live the same lives and we don't really want the same things. You may even find yourself to be one of the few people who want something that no one's ever achieved and when we attempt to reach it, we can become intimidated by the inevitable fear of failure.

I know people who spend most of their lifetime locked up in their homes and I know people who barely are, out in the world, living their lives by these said risks. It doesn't necessarily mean something that's vital because even the little things count.

They don't follow the typical path designed for everyone to follow because they create their own as they live. It's what makes me find people like Tati so admirable.

God, but it's so much easier when you know exactly what you want.

Do I get the gold chariot? Do I float through the ceiling?

2009-08-17T23:47:00.000-07:00

It's very strange to feel like everything is finally okay and you wonder why it took much longer than it should have. What a cruel tease it is when your tender heart develops a continuous pattern to dread what's next. It is then that you realize that you have no idea what it's like to feel completely happy.

I can only hope with every bit of my sanity that this is the end because, ultimately, I refuse to fall into another trap of giving another chance. Who knows what could happen? I may lose faith altogether. But I will remain to be patient and continue on as I have been; striving to regain back my strength and to live a genuinely happy life.

If anyone feels any measure of care for me, all I ask it to not ruin that. I've been through enough heartache to last me quite some time. Otherwise? Keep away. Enough is enough.

Things are going to change around here.

2009-08-08T00:51:00.000-07:00

With the help of certain family members and through the confidence within myself, I sincerely feel my life changing, even if most of it happens through small measures.

I've been getting into Feng Shui recently, thanks to my sister. I asked a friend of mine why they Feng Shui-ed their room and she said, "If any of it helps, why not?" That was a good way to look at the mysterious, "higher" things in life. I'm practicing Nichiren Buddhism for the beliefs of self-growth and peace that it advocates. Do I necessarily believe that chanting aspect of the practice aligns the universe to help clear the obstacles in the path in which my life is heading? I don't exactly know that to be true. However... due to my own experience, I can't help but notice the more immediate and positive changes that occur around me. And it's funny, because the moment I Feng Shui-ed my room, particularly my "money" corner, my family wasn't really struggling with their budget and, by the way, I have just be recently hired at the Universal Citywalk restaurant Buca di Beppo. -- Wait, what! I'm employed now?

Even the subtle turnovers make a difference to me. :) And I'm feeling happy about it, to be honest. It's just a matter of maintaining it and pushing that positive change even further.

Tomorrow my cousin, Mathew, is picking up my sister and I to go visit our Tia Chela. This is actually quite a big deal to both of us because we haven't seen her since my grandma moved out of the Whittier house, which was in mid-December. So... I haven't seen my Tia Chela (grandma's sister) in over half a year. I'm a little nervous out of excitement and I really don't want to cry. But I'm not so sure if I'm going to succeed in the latter.

I don't care what my grandma and Tia fought about. Both of them were wrong in the way they went about all this "drama" but I love them both just the same. It's not only them two that don't speak to each other, a lot of the generations prior to mine have their own issues. And because of it, there is this intricate split within my family. As this went on over the years, my cousins, sister, and I can't get together without the thought of avoiding trouble from the other one's parents/grandparents. It's actually quite painful.

I just hope that these visits to my Tia Chela's home becomes a frequent thing. She's a lot older than my grandma and I just hope that someday they will learn the meaning of starting anew. They don't have a lot of time...

Speaking of which, after I go to visit her tomorrow, I return to Los Angeles to square away my paperwork for Buca sometime after 4. :) Excited for the things ahead. Woo!

You'll find that life is still worthwhile, if you just smile.

2009-07-21T14:31:00.000-07:00

Today I hung up the phone after speaking with Alex about going to Rachel's tonight. I smiled and rolled over.

Sometimes the things you would see in movies or t.v. feel like they were really going to happen in your life when you got older. One of the few things that ever actually did were having my own circle of friends in high school. Though the group wasn't exactly an idealized version, it was perfect enough.

I mean, I did have people who were a bit closer at the time, like Jon and Sam Sam, but during high school they were in their little world of Immaculate Heart plays. I still saw them in between but there was always the inevitable feeling of this unbreakable distance since I could never and, nevertheless, refused to be part of that world. I've come to realize that my friends were genuinely valuable to me (and still are) because they were also people who loved me unconditionally. It's because they were always there, I got by in life. And I had fun all the while. :)

To have people you associate with a feeling of absolute joy is something I consider lucky to have. Lunch was always our time and those moments probably exceed all other good things those days. That day we all ditched school for a trip to Disneyland was probably the best day of those four miserable years. We could go about our mischievous schemes and our silly, innocent jokes without our limits.

Ugh, if these pictures did my post any justice.

What it do, gurl.

2009-03-29T21:45:00.000-07:00

franksterr5: hey, what it do
Sam Sam: eh?
franksterr5: what it do, gurl, what it do!
Sam Sam: what did what do?
franksterr5: hahahaha
Sam Sam: ...